Friday, September 25, 2009

Guilt trip

I have so many emotions running through me right now it's amazing i can even think straight..ok scratch that, I cant, that was proven by the man that gave me a $10 note at work today and I could have sworn he gave me a $50, even put the damn thing where the $50 notes go, lucky he was a decent guy and didnt just walk away with his extra $40 change..anywho back to emotions: excitement, guilt, confusion, euphoria, nervousness, more guilt, scared, amazed, bewilderment and guilt. Yes thats the main one today: GUILT!
Why do i feel guilty that I, yes just me, am going away on this amazing trip. I am leaving the family behind which is so very hard especially when a little 4yr old girl begs her Mummy can she come too so she can see her favourite man. Yes at the age of 4 her favourite man is none other than Caleb Followill. And it is going to be so, so hard saying goodbye to them for 11 days, not having them with me for 11 days but i need to do this, I need to try and find myself a bit because she tends to get lost under everything else quite a lot. I just hope i can fully be her in the US and leave all her emotional baggage behind in Aus. I hate guilt, it follows you around and likes to peer its head out when you least expect it. I am allowed to have me time and yes, its a fairly massive huge amount of me time but none the less, i work hard im allowed this right?! I dont want to feel guilty anymore, i want to feel so so happy that i am doing this just for me, one great big huge KOL fan heading over to see her Kings and meet her girls, just for me, for noone else and no other reason except the simple fact that I, Tanya, want to fuckin do it!! Even though its crazy this is so badly what i want to do. So not only is this trip for the Kings, it's for me, about me trying to tell myself that I am allowed to have me time, about forgetting the past that has plagued me for far too long, cementing some beautiful new friendships I have made, adding an incredible experience with one of my bestest friends that will be something we will never forget and hopefully coming back a new and improved person! The next 19 days can not go by fast enough, I need this so much.
Song for the day ~ "Use Somebody" just because yeah, i kinda could use somebody right now!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

My emotional roller coaster day

So the day started off ok..woke up with my usual US/KOL grin plastered over my face. Actually did some exercise before i went off to work because you know in only 21 days i will be on a big, scary plane heading over to see my crazy friends and indulge in some Followill action..and i do not want to be looking horrid in any of my US photos. Saying that, Im sure after a couple of drinks there may be some dodgy pics involving inflatable sheep..hang on, Im ok, Angie's the one doing the naked sheep riding haha!!
Now this is where we day turned decidely pear shaped...that place where you have to go only because you need money and you dont really enjoy it much, thats right work :( The first hour was actually not too bad, then i got called down to go onto registers. I fuckin hate registers..with a passion..and thats when the mother of all headaches hit me. Full on, think i may pass out headache and i just had to stand there for 3 fuckin hours and hope to hell i wouldnt end up killing someone wether it be the way to over the top nice granny or the older lady who kept throwing her fuckin card at me. You want to use EFTPOS? Swipe the damn thing yourself you silly old broad!! But through it all i thought of Nashville, ok mainly Jared and him driving up in some old American muscle car and taking me far, far away. A girl can dream right?! And i needed something to pass the time :)
Finally it ended and i got to go home, driving way too fast but i just wanted to go home and lay down!! And for whatever reason unbeknown to man i laid down and cried. Dont ya just hate that cry for no apparent reason thing? The headache has now subsided a bit but i think it will be an early night here in Australia and on another good note, heard from Mr Tattoo guy ~ only going to cost between $60-$80 to get it done. I thought that was well good!
In closing I will leave you with some pics of the man himself: Thank the lord for giving us the Jman, Amen!







Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I think i may have a problem....

Im sitting here, in my study, on my own not wanting to really chat to anyone in my world or online just watching the KOL footage i took when the guys were in Australia, completely lost in the Followill moment. In just over 22 days I will be there again..although this time i'll be front row in front of my fav Followill with some crazy bird from Scotland and all my other crazy mates spread out over the front row (if i say front row often enough it's gotta happen?!)
This my be my littlest blog in history but i have more Followill viewing ahead...PROMISE my next blog will have nothing to do with Followill's or the US!!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Take off your overcoat your staying for the weekend

24 days: Fly to the USA
25 days: KOL gig in Birmingham
26 days: KOL gig in Nashville
28 days: New York

OH MY FUCKIN GOD!!!!!!!!

This trip is really starting to sink in now but yet at the same time still seems so completely unbelievable, I mean really...why the hell would you fly all the way to the US from Australia to meet up with a crazy bunch of girls and catch 2 KOL gigs. You want to know why? Because i think deep down i am bloody insane :) This trip is so huge for me, leaving my world behind & everything i care about in it even though it is just for 9 days, never been out of Australia before, meeting girls i know fairly well yet have never spoken face to face with before, and the icing on that already unbelievable trip...Kings Of Leon, 2 gigs in 2 days *deep breaths* This really is happening!!
Today i have been packing a bit more, printing out all the ticket information for the flights, hotels and concerts, filled out the paperwork for my travel cash card so i can go get that tomorrow. I think I am actually organised, just got to wait this trip out.
I am sitting here at the moment listening to the guys do their thing, grinning like an idiot because in 25 days I will be seeing them again in a strange, totally new country. Every time i watch a youtube clip from one of their recent gigs i get butterflies because soon that will be us girls being in an arena with those guys. Will be my first time mosh pit at KOL too so that has added yet another level of excitement to this whole thing because they are going to be right there!!! Like literally right in front of me and thats just crazy in a completely great way!! I think back to when i first seen them live in Australia this year, how the whole evening blew me away so much that i then paid a stupid amount of money to buy tickets off ebay and flew to another state just because i HAD to see them again before they left Asutralia because who knows how long it would be before they came back and I would see them again. Never, in my wildest dreams did i think that here i would be, in the same year, 24 days away from flying to America to see tham again. Even Caleb would say i was fuckin insane for flying all that way to see them!!! But you know what? It is going to be so incredibly worth it, a new country bringing totally new experiences ( Do i really need to try grits??) and meeting new friends i feel like one of the luckiest people alive right now I dont know how much better life could actually get...ok, the Kings will play True Love Way, Soft, Trunk, Trani, Razz and Joes Head between their 2 gigs ( if i cant be so greedy just please for the love of all things Followill PLEASE play True Love Way!!) and we will get to meet atleast 1 Followill (Jared..did someone say Jared?? haha) while we are there..now if any of those things happened i think i could write this off as going to be the BEST TRIP EVER!!!!!
Apart from trying to survive the stupidly long flight to get to the US, then we get there jetlagged and have to get up at about 530am to catch a bus ride to Birmingham, KOL gig then do it all again the next day to get back to Nashville. Sleep?! What the fuck is that and who needs it? We're on holiday!!! Yet something else that will lead many people to the assumption that yes, we are indeed insane!!
Now after Birmingham/Nashville Leah and I are spending a few days in New York. I love New York, always been one of the places ive wanted to visit in the world and yet i cant seem to even get excited about going there yet. I think the whole Birmingham/Nashville part of the trip with KOL and meeting the girls is just fore front in my mnd and is pretty well all i can bloody think about! Must start making some plans for New York..am thinking statue of liberty, central park, empire state building for starters!
I think i have probably ratted on enough and you get the jist of just how bloody excited i am right now!!!! To all my girls enjoying this trip with me ~ Love you all, Can't wait to meet you all and BRING IT ON!!!!!
25 DAYS!!!!!!

Look what i just found...FINALLY!!!! TRUE LOVE WAY!!!! I love this song immensely..i had goosebumps watching it, just about had tears, sounded so good even though it looks like Caleb was having sound problems and it aint the entire song unfortunately but wow!! They gotta play this for us!!!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Tattoo

So I decided that Nashville would be the place for my first tattoo. Wanted something to remember this incredible trip by and had wanted a tattoo for quite awhile but had always been too chicken!! Figured since it's getting done in Nashville and this trip is all about our love of music and Kings Of Leon that i would get kinda a musical kol kinda tat? Trying to decide on what and wear has been so damn hard but i think i finally have something that i like. Is a bit bigger than what i was originally thinking and with lack of time that we all have together am thinking maybe i'll get it on the Sunday once we have all parted :( I don't know?? I have no idea how long these things take.
Here's a rough drawing of what i'm thinking of getting....

Tired.com

Why do i do that to myself?? Up till 5am last night, this morning whatever you want to call it. The downside to talking US holiday before going to bed, was so excited just could not bring myself to go attempt the sleep thing, even at 5am i didnt want to but forced myself too and sure enough as soon as i lay down i was out...may be the best sleep i've had in a long time!!
25 days people, 25 days i'll be flying to America :) 26 days I will be at a KOL gig in Birmingham, 27 days I will be at a KOL gig in Nashville!! Take off your overcoat your staying for the weekend...good times to roll on indeed!!
Love this following song at the moment, gets played a lot and holy fuck, it aint KOL. You are massively surprised aint you..see i do listen to other stuff occassionally!!

Foo Fighters ~ Best Of You live at Wembley stadium

My day

What has my day been filled with? Firstly i cleaned up puppy wee..little man, wee dog, pain in the ass sometimes but fuck he is cute Caleb likes to pee everywhere!!! If you are reading this Mr Caleb Followill im in no way referencing this to you although i an sure i have heard mention once of you peeing on furniture??  :) This is Caleb:

Cutest dog ever but still abit of a bad ass..see Caleb totally fits him!!!! Apart from Mr Lebster my day has been filled with work and kids...same old, same old. Although it is Friday night which means alcohol has been drunk..happy happy hey!!! Is only 26 days till Birmingham. Am so dying inside for a KOL gig, really I NEED to see these guys live again!!! And i need to meet my girls..Gonna be amazing!!!!
Watched ep 2 of season 5 of Supernatural tonight, really dont want to even talk about that yet it made me cry that much. I know its just a show but unless you are a big fan..like i am..you just dont get it, these guys hurt..so do you!! Is so sad :(
On that note, i am happy :) Ridicuously happy really, not long till i get the US and see KOL again and meet up with those lovely girls :)
Could life really get any better xx

Thursday, September 17, 2009

OH.MY.FUCKIN.GOD



Got home from work today, normal day same old shit, decided to have a look on Twitter and that's when my day suddenly got a bit more exciting. I know you're all probably thinking It's just Twitter, it aint that good but the news i heard on Twitter was fuckin amazing!!!!


So, to doubly be sure because surely it wasn't true, people have tweeted songs before that hadnt been played so i was dubious...went over to the trusty KOL site, checked the thread for the show and holy crap, one of the girls..and she's a trustworthy KOL fan... had posted that yes indeed the boys had played,...wait for it..keep waiting you'll never believe it...ready???...TRUE LOVE WAY!!!! Those guys..that totally amazing group of 4 incredibly talented guys..played True Love fuckin Way!! Holy crap...that song is number 1 on my ultimate KOL setlist and they hardly ever play it yet last night in Canada the guys pulled out this amazing song & treated the crowd to something very special. Love love love love love if they keep this in for their Birmingham and Nashville gigs, would just be the ultimate to be able to hear that song live. Whenever we chat about KOL songs we want, need to hear live True Love Way is always my first response and really didn't think i probably ever would hear it but now my chances are that bit brighter :)
Massively excited Aussie chick sitting here right now, hoping that someone, anyone managed to get some footage of this song!!! Its enough to make a KOL fangirl fall to her knees...seriously BEST NEWS EVER!!!! Now to just sit here and wait and pray that the guys keep it in for one of the gigs when i'm in the US....PLEASE!!!!!!!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Randomness part 1



ok so i have finally gotten my kids into bed...no easy feat i shall tell you! Is time for some randomness...lets see ~ top 5 things that make me happy:


1. Jared Followill...just look at the pic on the right, the man is GORGEOUS!!!! he is just guh! Words do not describe him and when you see him playing the bass it's just heaven! I really dont know exactly what it is, maybe it's the smile which gets me everytime but yeah, he has IT in bucketloads and I can't wait to stand front row right in front of him in Nashville!!

2. KINGS OF LEON...How do i describe these guys?? If im sad, happy, excited..whatever i can listen to KOL and everything fades away. When those 4 guys play together its just pure magic and Caleb has a voice like no other, BEST VOICE EVER!!!!

3. Jensen Ackles...the first love of my life, the man is incredible! Totally gorgeous and an amazing actor..been following his career for 11yrs and finally got the chance to meet him this year..one of the BEST weekends of my life EVER!!!!
4. Supernatural ~ Most AWESOME show ever..seriously if you dont already watch it, WATCH IT!!!! Is amazing...Dean and Sam ( Played by Jensen Ackles & Jared Padalecki) fight all kinds of Supernatural beings. They were bought into this life by their father who was avenging their mothers death...if i tell you anymore would ruin the complete storyline but wow, amazing show! Have been hooked since ep 1 of season 1 and we are now up to season 5. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!! Have met 3 cast members from the show and will go down as being some of my most memorable moments.
5. My KOL./Twitter/Facebook buds ~ you girls fuckin rock!!! We can have a laugh, you listen to me when i need a whinge or even when i want to cry you are all always there and Angie when she wants to take the piss out of me and post me loads of Europe clips hahaha. You girls are all amazing :)

Deluded nutjobs!

The world seems to be full of pyscho nutjobs and what may be even more troubling is that these people can actually go on to have children one day, will the cycle ever end!!
Ok, so my rant comes from Twitter this morning. Johanna Bennett who yes, we all know is Matt's girlfriend, has been copping all kinds of shit from these crazy deluded people, seriously:
"No i can't! But with the looks of your past you won't be with him when he has no money" "You've too much too say! Would you not be nice to Matt's fans for once ? You are a BITCH!! :)" "Don't be such a bitch!! Laura's just a really big fan of KOL, Your not going to be with Matt forever!"
Excuse me?! Being an absolute bitch to a person you dont even know is very classy! Now i don't know Johanna but she has always been good to us fans and truly just seems like a nice person.
I dont get it and hey, Im a pretty darn big KOL fan. We would all readily admit that they are good looking guys. I've happily been with my partner for 14yrs and yes i have a crush on Jared but slagging off their girlfriends just goes way, way below being a fan. That aint being a fan, thats being a pyscho deluded person who needs to go see someone about their problems! The people that seem to crawl out of the woodwork when the guys supposedly play a bad gig, when they have done something they supposedly shouldn't or being rude to their girlfriends ~ Leave the guys & their girls alone, lets not forget we love them for the amazing music they give us.
Well, i thought that's what it was all about.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

YEEHAW!!!!

I sit here attempting to do my first blog...far too tired, drained, blah to really be doing anything bar sleeping but yet here i am. Why can you not sleep when you need it most? One of life's great mysteries!
This time in exactly one month i will flying off in a great big, scary plane to the grand 'ol US of A. I live in Australia...huge, mammoth flight for me and my main reason for going?? Kings of fuckin' Leon!!! Call me crazy, insane, whatever but these guys are amazing. I am a pretty big fan..once you see these guys live you just have to see them again and again, the show they put on and the effort they put into each and every song is just mind blowing. I am a member of the official KOL site and some lovely person on the forum..you know who you are :) decided that hey, why dont we all meet up in Nashville Tennessee for a KOL gig?! What a damn good idea!!! We have been waiting and waiting and waiting and after all that time here we are a month out, getting ready to embark on that huge flight with one of my best friends in the world who coincidentally i became friends with due to our mutual love of all things Followill. Flight has me a little freaked out, surely it aint normal to be sitting on a plane for that long!!! First stop is Los Angeles, there for a couple of hours before we get back on another plane and head to Nashville. In Nashville for the night before we embark on a bus trip to Birmingham, Alabama to catch our first KOL gig of the trip and meet up with the girls. Nothing like a bus trip at 7am in the morning with jetlag to go see your favourite bunch of guys!!! Very quick visit in Birmingham, will be pretty well check into hotel, pickup tickets, then queue at the arena. I aint flying all that way to not be up the front!!! In Birmingham for the night before we catch the bus back to Nashville for THE gig of the trip. Kings Of Leon in their home town, absolutely fuckin amazing!!! and we will be showing Nashville just how damn proud they should be of them!!! The guys have been playing Soft & Trani lately..so hoping they keep both those songs in for our gigs and i think i would pass out..hopefully i dont as that would completely ruin the moment...but if they played Arizona or True Love Way..wow, to be able to hear those 2 songs live would just be the ultimate.
But what has become just as important as seeing Jared, Caleb, Matt & Nathan is the amazing group of people i will be sharing this adventure with. To have the opportunity to be able to meet these people face to face, give them a hug and actually speak in person rather than through a computer is something im sure is going to be very, very special.
Thinking about this trip gets me through the crap moments of life, i have never been outside of Australia before so this is all going to be one hell of a big adventure. Am even thinking i need my first tattoo...gotta be KOL related since we are going to the home of Followill but what exactly I am still unsure??
Here's to long plane flights, NOT forgetting my passport or losing my luggage, meeting good friends and seeing the mighty, mighty Kings..has been far too long between gigs!!